I just found out that my Nana (almost 90) has had a heart attack. SHe's in hospital right now. This is my Mom's mom, the only Grandma I know.
I feel particularly bad as I used to call her at least once a week (in addition to having dinnner with her at my Mom's, birthday parties etc). But several months ago I was talking about what was going on with CJ and I, and she overheard. I didn't really think about the effect on her (she has a form of dementia similar to alzheimer's) but found out the next day that she'd stayed up that entire night crying over my situation.
Since then, I would pick up the phone and just couldn't make the call. At first it was because I didn't KNOW what was to become of my M, then time just got away from me.
What a sorry case...self pity and remorse while she is suffering. I'm going to see her tomorrow. Pray that it is not too late.
Shiny
P.S. I'm going to try to BB for a while to take my mind off of this, I can't do anything but pray, right now.
