Shines Like Destruction (10)

[gForce]

you are hitting a low. Protect yourself and recognise it. You see how milder it is this time, trust it will last less as well... You are right about detachment. Acceptance for me is a biggie. I feel when I will accept 100% he is gone, no "whys" "buts" "ifs" I ll be OK. People lose loved ones that never intented to leave them and still make it. They don't get a choice, we don't either... (It's all about choices and not having any...).

Thanks, I know I've been low - and there's a lot on my plate now. But as the weeks go by, I am dealing with things better all the time.
You aren't crazy, you love him. That's why it is so hard.

[kat727]

Hey, what are you doing tonight? I think I'll crack open a movie. Right now my S15 is scolding me because I am not as up-to-date as he is on facebook and why isn't he my friend. Geez! I do have a picture which is more than some can say!

kat

[gForce]

I'm working on call tonight so just dropping by for a sec. Good thing, though, cause my eyebrows are singed from a hot online photo I saw ;-)
I better go before the heat burns out my eyeballs!

[kat727]

So can I still say I am a hot 43 year old? Thanks for not throwing tomatos.

kat

[gForce]

No tomatoes. Will throw rose petals instead. So many they fall like rain all round you.

Still working. I'm tired.

[kat727]

That is sooo sweet. Your wife is the fool. Thank you.

kat

[karen43]

Geez! I do have a picture which is more than some can say!

kat

Grrrrr! I know this is directed at me--I still don't have a digital camera, but will try to work on that this week!!! Karen

[kat727]

It was more of a hint than a barb. You know I love ya! Sorry if I hurt your feelings.

kat

[gForce]

So when I talked to W yesterday we made plans to meet for lunch today. I didn't say anything to you guys about it because I thought she would back out. But W & SD8 came over (She still doesn't want me to go over to her place). Anyway, we went to Pizza Hut then spent a few minutes back here before loading up her car with a few leftover odds and ends that were still here. I wasn't perky, mostly because of working last night, but stayed pleasant for the most part.

Nothing monumental. It was good to see SD8 and spend some time with her. I think W and I were both glad to see each other and sad at the same time. No big R talk, mostly small talk. She saw some stuff the realtor left, and got teary. She said she was sad when I told her I was moving. I told her I missed her and SD8. We hugged a lot during our chat, then I gave her a kiss on the lips goodbye (only our second since the bomb). Not a big wet one, sorry gals.

I was glad to see her, touch her, and (as funny as it sounds) to smell her again. I'm glad we are able to be civil. It felt like a farewell.

[karen43]

It was more of a hint than a barb. You know I love ya! Sorry if I hurt your feelings.

kat

That was a fake growl! I'm not mad at all (it takes a LOT more than that!!! Karen