ms ladybug SQUISHED (2)

[ms ladybug]

QUICK UPDATE:

I'm pretty sure he read the email. Last night when the kids called to say good-night he was out getting a couple drinks with his cousin. So, when I got on the phone, he actually talked a bit, told me where he was (I didn't ask), and stayed on the phone for a couple minutes. I told him to tell his cousin I said "hi", and he said he would.

Then, he calls me again at 12:30am, I was asleep, but asnwered the phone. There was a lot of small talk, telling me about his cousin and what he's up to, some work stuff, etc...I kept expecting him to bring up the email, but he never did. Then, he said, "so, do you want me to come over?" (his line for a booty call). I thought about this before, and what I would do. I know it messes with my head, especially now that he's made clear he wants out, but I also thought about what Sara said, about him calling for sex if he doesn't have a girlfriend. Likely, he's spending time with someone, but if I can fulfill the physical side of things, for right now, I think I should. So, I said, "sure".
When he came over, he got in bed, and gave me a hug and said, "I miss you." (now, whether he means, I miss sex, or I miss YOU, I'm not sure, but it was nice to hear). And I said, "I miss you too." It was a nice time.
Of course, I got the whole pull back this morning. He got up when the alarm went off, and I asked if he wanted coffee. He said, "no. I need to go get ready for my class." and he walked out the door. Not a look, not a good-bye, nothing. I was prepared for that, and not upset. I figure, after last night, I'll give him some time.

I took the kids to swimming lessons, and then we went to the zoo with my mom. While we were at the zoo, h calls me and says, "where are you?" I said, "I'm at the zoo." ( I told him yesterday that I was taking the kids there today). He said, "so am I. My class got out early." I was REALLY shocked to hear that. So, I went to the entrance, so he could use our pass to get in. We didn't stay long. It was really hot today (106), and h was a bit hungover.

We did all go to lunch afterwards. While we were at lunch, h asked what I was doing today. I has to take my mom back to her car, but after that I wasn't sure. I asked him if he was going to go take a nap, and he said, "Well, I was going to go back to our house and nap if you're going to be there." I said, "OK. I can do that." He got a little pissy for some reason, and said, "do you even care?" What?? I said, "yes. I care, I'll come home after I take my mom to her car."

So, he's been here since. Right now he's out renting a movie and buying ice cream. It's not all roses, and he's acting a little grumpy...but he's HERE. I made a little slip up. I went to do something in the bedroom, and h's phone was on the nightstand and ringing like a text was coming in. I read it, and didn't understand it, but it sounded like a girl. So, I go to h on the couch, and toss him his phone and just said, "you have a text." and I walked away. I was mad, but while I was in the other room he makes a phone call. Then, when I walk back he said "that was Ed" and explained the text. I was in my head thinking all kinds of senarious of ow's and it was Ed.

He also wants to take the kids and I to his company picnic tomorrow. I see this as BIG. He will be around virtually EVERYONE he works with, and he wants me there!!

No mention of the email, may never be, but I'm OK with that.

Again, I know this is a roller coaster, but the ups are so nice.