Well how about this, just in case he is "peeking"....
You brought incredible pain to this woman, yet she stood strong for you and your marriage. Through infidelity and hateful words, she stood for you and your marriage.
Through the loss of those beloved by her and the additional pain that brought to her, she stood by you and your marriage.
When you said you wanted to come home, she was so happy. You could just feel the joy coming through her posts.
And then you hurt her again.
And again.
You say you can't be intimate. You won't say why. And now, MONTHS after coming home, just NOW you decide that maybe you should do something about it.
You continue to let the woman you were having an affair with be involved in your life by renting her one of your apartments. You don't see the pain that causes, ESPECIALLY after Patti found that you had STILL been bedding the woman.
Any true man would have vanquished this woman a long time ago. But no, you come up with weak financial excuses as to why she must stay. You proclaim GUILT for hurting the adultress, but ignore completely the continuing pain you bring to the woman you say you truly love.
I find you dispicable on so many levels.
But Patti loves you and wants the life you promised each other you would have. And you say you want that too.
So if you're reading this now, it's time for you to MAN UP in a big way partner.
You've abused her love for long enough. You've caused enough pain. You've strung her along for months in a netherland, not knowing whether you were for real or not.
Time for you to PROVE what you said is true.
Get rid of the adultress. No real man would still have her around. She was a mistake, and your time with her was wrong, so put your guilt over her to rest. She knew damned well what she was getting in to.
Get help for you problem. And while you're trying to make those parts work again, how about showing your INTIMATE love in ways that don't require your parts to work? A real man doesn't need his own satisfaction to give love and satisfaction to his wife.
You've got alot to make up for.
And if you're reading this now, you are violating her SAFE place, the place where she found the strength to stand strong for you, even while you were making her life a living hell.
Leave it alone and Man UP.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."