What do I want from life?

[sage]

Hey SB !

BUT I haven't done this. I'm starting to think that forgiveness, for me, may come in bits and pieces. Maybe this is totally against the whole idea of forgiveness, but for example.

Actually, Brian (eskb) and I talked a bit about this on his thread. I can totally relate to what you're saying...


I struggle with the lies during the a and probably even more importantly to me -- the times when I asked him point blank and he denied the a. to me....I guess that kind of feels like insult on injury...like, it's understandable if you lie to cover your tracks but if I'm giving you the opportunity to come clean and stop this and YOU DON'T. arrgh.

Strangely, I think I forgive him (or is it just that I kind of understand WHY he did SOME of what he did leading up to bomb 3) for staying in contact with her after we were apparently making progress in MC., and I was under the delusion that she was in the past;. I can see how he could be manipulated in that fashion. It's not attractive. I wish he'd stood up to her much earlier, told me about it and took his own chances, rather than wait for her to drop the bomb on me. Can I forgive him for human weakness, fear? yes.

huh. well, you KNOW this is where I get stuck...hey, have you noticed that this has NOT been the focal point of my thread for the last couple of weeks???? I think your forgiveness here shows a lot of compassion for h.

Sage