Well today isn't going so well. Nothing terrible, but....
First I didn't get enough sleep, had to rush out to an early meeting without breakfast. ...Meeting itself was a downer, looks like Admin doesn't want to give us "Sessional Lecturers" any breaks in the on-going contract negotiations.
Then I started feeling nauseated on the way home, decided to work on my class list before trying lunch. CJ was on the computer when I got home and said I'd like to work on my list.
He said he was just finishing an e-mail. 5 minutes. So I organized some notes. Called a pal. Asked...5 more mintues...sat in the back and waited another 20 mintues before deciding to try lunch.
But I was irritated by then. I can foresee all kinds of episodes like this in the future. I know that's negative thinking, but we're already having conflicts over computer time and CJ hasn't even started his on-line course yet! Nor is his consulting up and running!
I suggested we turn our unused basement family room into an office for him...two computers, no conflict. He thinks we can somehow work it out based on "priority".
I'm not as confident that such an approach will be hassle free! Sometimes I like to work at things way ahead of time to ease my anxiety and future work load. I almost NEVER "HAVE" to get on here to do something last minute.
Oh well, so things are a bit tense now.
I think perhaps (just hit me) that part of today's "pissiness" may stem from an anniversary of sorts. Last year this weekend I spent at our local Blues Festival with the then newly "ex" girlfriend of CJ's then best friend. CJ himself was "out of town"
I remember now how I couldn't reach him that weekend, how he wasn't at the hotel, didn't pick up his cell phone, didn't return my messages, didn't want me to buy him tickets for the Sunday night part of the weekend (he was in early afternoon).
I remember feeling so distant from him that weekend. With my single girlfriend I had a blast! (Not as much fun as HE had, I'll bet ) I bought a commemorative ball cap for myself. CJ actually later complained (jokingly) that I didn't buy one for him!! Now a lot of the time he wears mine.
...Meeting itself was a downer, looks like Admin doesn't want to give us "Sessional Lecturers" any breaks in the on-going contract negotiations. 
) I bought a commemorative ball cap for myself. CJ actually later complained (jokingly) that I didn't buy one for him!! 
