It won't always be like this HC. You are still very fresh into this. Over time, you will be able to pull away from him without it rocking you to the core. You will eventually be detached from him. You aren't yet and no one would expect you to be! It takes some people years to detach...for you, I think that - even though your sitch is really bad and sad - I think it will not take you as long as it takes others. The reason I say this is that I read such a strength in your posts.
But it will still take a long time so be patient with yourself!
