Interesting idea about the dream. Upon reflection, I think that I can look at that aspect two ways: 1) I DID live there my entire life until M ...2) there may be unresolved issues but I think they are my SISTER's! Right at the time of this dream I was rather caught in the middle of an ongoing personality clash between my beloved Mom and beloved older sister.
I'd been thinking a lot about the differences in our memory of our childhoods, of our mother, of the ratio of good to bad for several days at the time. I'd also spent more actual "real time" at home with my Mom that week.
Mom and I (I THINK) have most of our issues worked out. Lots of love and support both ways now (when I lived there...that was another matter!).
How can ONE mistaken key stroke wipe out a whole (good) post?????
Jeannine, I'm hoping to get over to you before starting dinner. If not, later for SURE!
Worked in the yard yesterday, loving the new pruner H bought. Did a 110 minute work-out today. Felt GREAT!!! I may not be svelt, but I'd challenge the average 40 year old to a test of dancing and flexibility any day!
It's Canada Day, our "July 4th". We may try to make the fireworks...but if that's too much effort, maybe we can make a few of our own??
I've mentioned on Sage's thread how I've had an inner shift for the better of late. I can't quite explain it, but I don't jump when the phone rings...(today it did and my first thought was J, my best old pal...sure enought it Was her ). I have no compulsions to check on what CJ is doing on the computer (used to steal surreptitious glances at the screen and lower task bar.).
And as even further evidence of just how far I've come this year (thanks to everything, including my meds!)...tomorrow is the first day of my Summer class.
Normally I would be stressing out about it for days already. Am I prepared? Do I know my stuff? (Come ON, SB you've been teaching this stuff for 14 years!!!)...Will they like me? What if something goes wrong? What should I wear????? On and On and On.
Today I haven't even scanned my notes (did it late last week...I know this stuff!), picked out what to wear in about 2 minutes, and am having some fun!
CJ and I did some mock boxing while I was working out...nice!
I wanted to thank you while I was thinking about it for all the help and support you have been. The posts to David on my thread and everything. He certainly spent a lot of time reading them a week ago or whenever it was.
I don't know if I will keep posting and was thinking this morning I wanted to be sure to stop by and thank you! and wish you all the best!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I guess I'd better get over to Pam's thread to see what has her thinking she's not going to post anymore!!!
As for me, first class went fine, today's was a bit slower (I AM covering research design, not the most inherently interesting... ).
Last night we picked up my best pal J and her daughter L and took them to our Marina for Wednesday's in the Park...local bands, and best of all...HACKEY SAC!!
Wound up playing for about 2 1/2 hours! Of course a couple of adolescent boys had to join in and show us all of their moves...pretty impressive, actually.
Cj's been burning it up getting his consulting business started, working on his conference paper, etc. Nice to see him interested again.
Thank you for your posts! Ok, I'm not quitting. I was so discouraged yesterday morning. Cal has kept me going this last stressful week.
It sure sounds like things are going well in your sitch. Maybe someday David and I will be there. I sure do hope so. I'm not typing too great. Needed stress reliever. Dinner was an honest to goodness bottle of French Champagne (yes, we drank the whole thing) and some strawberries!
I was doing an act as if! Thinking positive that he is going to give us more time!!!
No anxiety on your part. That was an assumption I had before your post!!!!!!!!!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Hi, Shiny! Hope the first "week" (3 days - that's a good week!) of classes went well!
Hope your insides are giving you a break!
I haven't been around for awhile, but I think I'll post to my thread today...
Independence Day. Our Canada Day! The kids know about and are excited about fireworks, so we need to find somewhere to go! Usually we go to my parents outside Knoxville TN and get on Dad's boat and watch the fireworks from a TVA lake. Not this year...so I have to figure out what's good to do around here!
Well today isn't going so well. Nothing terrible, but....
First I didn't get enough sleep, had to rush out to an early meeting without breakfast. ...Meeting itself was a downer, looks like Admin doesn't want to give us "Sessional Lecturers" any breaks in the on-going contract negotiations.
Then I started feeling nauseated on the way home, decided to work on my class list before trying lunch. CJ was on the computer when I got home and said I'd like to work on my list.
He said he was just finishing an e-mail. 5 minutes. So I organized some notes. Called a pal. Asked...5 more mintues...sat in the back and waited another 20 mintues before deciding to try lunch.
But I was irritated by then. I can foresee all kinds of episodes like this in the future. I know that's negative thinking, but we're already having conflicts over computer time and CJ hasn't even started his on-line course yet! Nor is his consulting up and running!
I suggested we turn our unused basement family room into an office for him...two computers, no conflict. He thinks we can somehow work it out based on "priority".
I'm not as confident that such an approach will be hassle free! Sometimes I like to work at things way ahead of time to ease my anxiety and future work load. I almost NEVER "HAVE" to get on here to do something last minute.
Oh well, so things are a bit tense now.
I think perhaps (just hit me) that part of today's "pissiness" may stem from an anniversary of sorts. Last year this weekend I spent at our local Blues Festival with the then newly "ex" girlfriend of CJ's then best friend. CJ himself was "out of town"
I remember now how I couldn't reach him that weekend, how he wasn't at the hotel, didn't pick up his cell phone, didn't return my messages, didn't want me to buy him tickets for the Sunday night part of the weekend (he was in early afternoon).
I remember feeling so distant from him that weekend. With my single girlfriend I had a blast! (Not as much fun as HE had, I'll bet ) I bought a commemorative ball cap for myself. CJ actually later complained (jokingly) that I didn't buy one for him!! Now a lot of the time he wears mine.
Shiny - Two computers, definitely. Surely you can get a cheap used one if all you need is word processing and internet access?
As for the other stuff - quit dwelling on the past. Remember what I learned about riding motorcycles? Don't look where you don't want to go. Don't focus on the negative. Focus on a positive image of the future.
...2) there may be unresolved issues but I think they are my SISTER's! Right at the time of this dream I was rather caught in the middle of an ongoing personality clash between my beloved Mom and beloved older sister. 
...Meeting itself was a downer, looks like Admin doesn't want to give us "Sessional Lecturers" any breaks in the on-going contract negotiations.