you are hitting a low. Protect yourself and recognise it. You see how milder it is this time, trust it will last less as well... You are right about detachment. Acceptance for me is a biggie. I feel when I will accept 100% he is gone, no "whys" "buts" "ifs" I ll be OK. People lose loved ones that never intented to leave them and still make it. They don't get a choice, we don't either... (It's all about choices and not having any...). K