O.k. so last night i thought my H was supposed to have a band practice at his place (the band scheduled it on mon.)but some how the plans changed.
I went to trivia as usual with a few friends. I decided that I was not going to do all the work in this M, and that I would not call him first.
Finally at 8:45ish he text me that he was just getting done with roofing for the day and that he was stopping at a pizza place for dinner. I text back, that I was at trivia. He said "he thinks he would rather stay in". I said "ok, i hope to see ya tommorow" (even though - I know he probably went out to the bars again). He text back and said "I hope so too, how about dinner?" I said sure.
So he is gonna come over tonight for dinner. We havent talked in person since tuesday night. Things will probably be awkward tonight becuase of my fears and emotions and sensitivity. I will do my best to be upbeat.
Saturday should also be interesting. My H is supposed to play in a gig at a all day block party in our town. Also, We were both invited to my friends (and H's old best friend for 20+ yrs that now they hardly talk to each other) surprise 30th b-day party.
Talk about being torn again. H's old best friend has so totally been there for me throughout this past year that H was gone and I wouldnt miss his party for anything. I also dont know what times my H's band will play at the block party, so I have to do a dance back and forth between the two. My H also has lead me to believe that he will stop in and visit at his old best friends b-day party - but we will see. I wont hold my breath. TIPPER
