I just got back from C and it was a really hard session to take today. She said that she did not think H would ever come back, that he will be filling his needs w OW until she decides enough is enough. She said she thought H had a history of abandoning me, at that this time he did it in such a way that maybe I would take the hint and not come back. She said that she did not neccesarily think the he was in MLC, but just a self centered person who only looked after himself and not others.
This is so not what I wanted to hear. She knows that I want my H back and that I was happy with him for the majority of our relationship. Of course he has issues, we all do, but that does not mean I do not love him. She keeps trying to get me to see that loving him is not a healthy thing for me. Funny had when I had it, I felt healthy! <Sigh> I just dont know what to do with her take on things. Maybe she does see something that I just dont want to see.
I'm just going to take it one day at a time and stil focus on me getting as strong and as detached as I can. It just makes me so sad that she could be right.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
