Good God, Shiny! I just was rereading your history and you have been through lots of greif.!! So be a little easier on yourself, IMHO. You have really rebounded from some tough situations in less than 6 months. And turned 40!!!! I just wanted to say you are doing better than most and take care of yourself. Before I forget and now I am off to read the rest. I have a short attention span.
Shay