Wow, Ali...I have only read bits and pieces of your sitch, but it sounds like there is a LOT to the story, if your H has drug and honesty issues...wow. Having not been in your shoes at all, all I can do is offer support but no words. (((((hugs)))))
A quick note about all the sex you are up to lately...
Just a warning really. Please be careful to still leave a tiny bit of room between you and H so that he can still seduce you, or at least have the chance to, once in a while. A man still needs to conquer you sometimes, too. Yes they want us to be all up on them all the time - but not LITERALLY all the time. They want us to leave a little room between us and them, so they can pursue you a bit. Even if he has in the past required you to initiate all the time, every time, to make up for the past...if you really do that literally every time, all the time, you will squealch his need to conquer you once in a while.
Yeah my story is rich and full of many layers. Would make a great Lifetime Movie actually. One of those tear jerkers... where in the end the Lady is strong and Happy....
I have been to hell and back.... Thanks for the hugs I need 'em today. God bless.. ~Ali
Got to agree with Dance on both counts here. I am not much help on your past stuff, wish I knew better...
On the leaving your husband room, she does have somewhat of a point. But, seduce and "take" if you know what I mean, can still leave him with the same having conquered feeling. I saw your post to SOB, so I think you know what I am talking about.
Thanks guys for your support.... My Computer cord is not working again so my laptop doesnt stay charged... bummer! I appreciate your support.... I will try to run and get a new cord today and check on you all later.... Have a great weekend... ~Ali P.s., * the beads* My Hubby claims I lifted up my shirt to get the beads,,, I dunno, I doubt it,,, but I cant remember cause I had one to many Hurricanes. And I dont hold my liquor well.. OOPs!
OOPs!