I am confused, why are you scared of him moving on from TH?
I mean, I'm worried about him being able to move on from her. But, now that I think about it, The Horse should be worried about him moving on from me!
One thing that worries me too is that I don't remember the last time that H has looked at me with "that look". Meaning, you know when someone is into you, they can't keep their eyes off of you? There are certain times I felt that from H: 1) Senior year in HS when he told me I was one of the prettiest and sweetest girls in school; 2) On our wedding day 3) During our separation, I was getting ready to go out and he was at the house and I looked amazing and he kept checking me out, wanting to know where I was going, etc.
I just don't ever feel that he looks at me and thinks, Wow, she is beautiful. or Wow, she is amazing. She takes my breath away. I want to feel like he is proud to have me and that he can appreciate me. But, maybe that is part of the issue? His self-loathing and own wounds doesn't allow that (not just for me, but for anyone).
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
