You guys are all great, it was an awesome night as I said I had my old W for an 1 1/2 it was comfortable.
Too comfortable for W I guess, it didn't take but 24 hrs for it to change as I/we all knew it would, the turtle crawled back into her shell. LOL! Good thing I had no expectations or I would be REALLY disappointed right now. W was texting earlier this evening and then came the digs. I told her the shirts she had bought didn't fit. She says well you have lost too much weight. I said I have lost some. She says I could tell when I hugged you. I said I have only lost 15 lbs. She says well so the shirts are to big and I liked them. Im like WTF why are you slammin me, her reply was I still know how to get to you!! I said no the shirts are too SMALL, I need XXL not XL, I said I have may lost weight, but I have but my muscle mass back on. Well it's my fault you lost the weight, it's ALL my fault. GEEZ will it EVER end? Ironically her cell phone went dead and POOF she is dark again.
Wallow in your own self pity, life is too short. Too have something within your crasp and you can't reach it because of the indecision. I'm not getting on the coaster screw it, if she wants me she knows where to look if Im there so be it I/we don't deserve this, there are plenty of other women out there that would love to call me boyfriend/husband. Don't misunderstand not angry just hurt, going dark it's safer on my heart.
So let the 2x4's commence at this point it would be feeling something real!!!
Oh No !!! Okay, so it's easier to do what's normal & comfortable. That doesn't mean you won't have more times like last night. I'm so sorry that you're hurting.
All I can do is 'try' and 'read' the signs/vibes she is putting out, I know it's not right but what else are we LBS's suppose to do. She made the comment again that at the 'dinner' it was nice, but was 'familar' now is that good or bad? Obviously by her slammin me tonight it was bad. IDK, my mind is spinning abit like I said last night I need to take a step back myself, detach alittle deeper and try & put things back in perspective & lose the emotions.
SC appreciate what you have done down by your signature, that means a great deal to me *TY*
