And you didn't sound negative to me Jethro. Thanks for the kick in the A$$, Sage. You're right, I'm whining, but not really doing much MYSELF to push things in a better direction. Point well taken.
For me, the weird thing is I can go for days not even really remembering the horror of this last year. I don't know if that's good or bad.
Part of me wants to keep it close (part of the reason I hang on to the "evidence") so that I don't forget the enormity of what was done to me. Why would I NOT want to forget? So that I don't allow it to happen again, I suppose. I don't really know. Perhaps to remind CJ at some point of the incredible nature of most of it? I feel sometimes that he has forgotten and put this behind him rather easily. I could be wrong, but that's the feeling I get sometimes.
Okay: Three positives for today
1) CJ got on the phone first thing this morning to change one of our cable channels to a 24 hour medical station (something I'd mentioned a while ago)
2) CJ was called for an interview for a part time job
3) I found some cool shorts and a nice pair of pants...all very inexpensive!
4) Oh yeah! Blood tests show NO thyroid problems
But now I have nothing to blame the weight gain on!
Guess I'll just have to get my butt in gear the old fashioned way...sigh...
