Thanks for your support. I've got to be honest, ever since I made the decision, I've got that small part of me nagging and saying "suck it up and do it." I just don't want to. It is something I loathe to do and it is emotionally difficult for me to pull the trigger on doing. So, I'm going to do my best to get W to spring for 1/2 of the painting costs.
When I was talking w/ D earlier, W got on the phone and I told her I had sent her an e-mail today and she asked me to tell her on the phone to tell her what it was about. So, I asked if she would consider having someone paint the inside of the house for us.
She wanted to know why I couldn't do it and I said it was because I didn't want to as I hated to paint and that it was overwhelming for me. I told her it was overwhelming me emotionally because it was just another thing on a long list of items I don't want to do b/c of our D. She didn't say anything for a while but then said "it doesn't cost anything to get estimates, so go ahead."
I'm sure she's upset at the cost of spending more money, but I really don't know if I can do it. Every time I've started, I've found a reason to quit. The best thing is what I've decided to do, even if she sticks me w/ the whole bill.
I may be able to get money from her later, but even if I don't, the peace of mind I'll gain will be worth more than her 1/2 of the paint job.
I did workout tonight and now I'm heading out to get my hair cut as it is a bit long for me to be comfortable in.
