Wow, Ali...I have only read bits and pieces of your sitch, but it sounds like there is a LOT to the story, if your H has drug and honesty issues...wow. Having not been in your shoes at all, all I can do is offer support but no words. (((((hugs)))))
A quick note about all the sex you are up to lately...
Just a warning really. Please be careful to still leave a tiny bit of room between you and H so that he can still seduce you, or at least have the chance to, once in a while. A man still needs to conquer you sometimes, too. Yes they want us to be all up on them all the time - but not LITERALLY all the time. They want us to leave a little room between us and them, so they can pursue you a bit. Even if he has in the past required you to initiate all the time, every time, to make up for the past...if you really do that literally every time, all the time, you will squealch his need to conquer you once in a while.
