thank you guys sooo much for your encouraging words!!! OD, I can shift my focus to possible meetings in July/August.... Jeff, what you say is really interesting about him not owing me anything, but seeming to give me a lot. Hm..... The distance thing is an issue to be sure, but after Dec, when I am done with my degree, I can hypothetically relocate to wherever I want, and even living in Boston, which he visits regularly for work, would be WAY closer and more accessable than living in ATL.
I had a Flash of Insight yesterday about guidelines. Sometimes I can think of it as not an old friend, or a new date, but a *new friend*. Would I expect a completely new friend to want to see me under the circumstances that I think B might want to see me? Probably not. That is OK.
I feel kind of weird in NY right now. I am ready to not be living out of a suitcase anymore (having been on the move for the past 6 weeks), and in my own space and doing my own thing. and I feel like I am just sitting around on the off chance that B might a)contact me and b) want to meet in his remote location or something. *BUT*, when I was here 6 months ago, we weren't even speaking, and part of the reason I came to NYC then was just on the off chance we would RUN INTO each other and he didn't hate my guts!!! I think I need to FOCUS ON THE POSITIVES of what transpired in the past 10 days!!!
