I am proud of you for taking 100% responsibility right now- thats all you can do...for YOU and for your H. BLAME is part of his fear. you need to hear it in one ear and let it out..they are just words...no reaction- think of him saying this to anyone...and you would say " ok , what else?"
This will set you free no matter what...this is all this is - learning about yourself.
Take it one day at a time- you are good at that by now ;-)
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