I guess I am struggling with how to let my emotions out to him when I am hurt or feeling like he is not putting effort into us.
Last night, my H had a kiwanas club(town) meeting that got over at 8ish. I text him at 8:30 and said that I didnt go to volleyball and that I would be interested in watching a movie if he wants to come over.
H text back and said " it is not in the cards, he is going to the bar for a min (yeah right) and then he really wants to practice drumming.
I didnt snoop, but I just know that he was at the bar all night. He can not drum late at night due to the noise. Also, He drunk text me at 12:50 and said, "I LOVE YOU". That was when he probably left the bar to go back to his apartment.
URHG!!!! this is so repetetive, he is constantly choosing the bars over us being together.
I dont know what to do. Right now, he knows I dont like him going to the bars that much - but he keeps doing it. I am trying to act like it is no big deal, but I feel so hurt when he rejects me after all he has put me through this past year. I said, "ok, and that I will see him this weekend". He said it will be fun. I decided to text back with excitement about how great the weekend will be rather than explode at him for going out again.
