Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I wonder how you can love someone and hate them at the same time.
Not good. And I don't know what to do with it. How does it go away?
Maybe it doesn't go away. Maybe you just learn to accept it and move on. Its easy to love someone and hate them at the same time. You love them because of all you have shared and the part they have played in your journey so far. Hating them for the damage they have caused or the person they have become is just another part of it. Its an intense emotion and that means there are still emotional ties there. Try just not giving a rats a$$ on for size. For me, its not a better place to be.
(((Jeff)))
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
i don't know if my W hates me... i hope not.. i did alot of damage to our R.. she even told me i took her soul.. hmmm..
I just continue on and remain a positive person, I am whipping myself into shape, and i enjoy yoga ALOT..
as for her hating me. She tells her friends i am a good guy.. (I snooped in her email) .. i try not to do that.. it's probably not productive to what i am trying to achieve.. but it's almost like i am happy.. she is angry with happy facade.. make sense?
No, apathy is a dangerous cycle to get into and I think very difficult to get out of. I think it is a definite form of self protection, my h used/ uses it against me because I think he felt he couldn't win and it was also a good excuse for him to leave a complicated situation that he wasn't prepared to even start to work on.
Jeff you work on yours everyday and you're still hanging in there. I admire you hugely for that.
