You have to change your mentality. Quit comparing H and OM. Everything with OM is a fantasy, there is not one drop of reality there. Quit playing scenarios with Om out in your head. It does no good.

Focus on your H and what a good and obviously patient man he is. Create or act out fantasies with him.

kat

Me-53(and learning!)
S24, S21, D18, D17
Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory