I have been thinking about your question for an hour now. It is a good question.
My answer however, will not be good I think. It's actually embarrassing.
It seems so many things were tied to her in some way or another. When I am on an emergency call, (except in the dark of a fire) I concentrate on the task at hand. But going to the call and returning, still has her in my thoughts.
I've tried biking, swimming...excercise in general but that seems to only keep me busy physically, mentally I still drift.
I've taken a couple long Motorcycle rides (mini-vacations) but like a fool, think to myself, B would have liked to do this or that. And when I do things that have no "real" previous conection to her, I still think about her.
Its stupid obsessive thinking. I KNOW. I am disappointed with myself for it.
Maybe I am just one of those sad saps that needs to do for others (not just anyone otherwies the volunteering I do would be working) that really makes me the happiest.
