I have closed all my mini-blinds. I simply cannot "enjoy" summer today. I have to finish the piddly work on my desk - and that includes mostly preparing and sending out invoices.
I am as ready as I can be at this point to head out into the "big bad dating" world. Mindset is important part of the process for me - otherwise I could meet someone incredible and find some way to justify "running away."
It is a little like looking for a job - if you never send out a resume - it is unlikely someone is going to come knocking on your door to offer you a job.
I need to put myself out there. And this fundraiser is the first time I am putting myself out there in a long time. Not that I expect to walk out of there with someone - but then again I have sent out hundreds of resumes at different points in my career to get one job or the right job.
It really is uncanny that I post about making it a goal to attend fundraisers to put myself out there - and one plops into my lap the next day...
Anyway, I am not ready to say I am actively looking. I am ready to day that I am not averse to meeting someone. So I am creeping along the mindset part of dating! LOL! I feel that I am stable enough in the other parts of my life to take a risk with my emotions.
Really what is the worst that can happen - I meet someone and they don't like me or I meet someone they end up "firing" me or I struggle with having to "fire" them. Been there done that - and yes, I am still standing. And if I meet someone - I will probably be all bouncy and insecure - fine I will deal with that if and when it happens.
Okay - since my goals have a weird way of happening - dare I actually write it down.... Okay really scary part... My goal is to go out on a date with someone that intrigues me. There I did it! Okay, now I am going to go hide.
