I miss the kids. I realize that I didn't just lose a H, but I lost an entire family. People have no idea how much harder it is for a step parent, one that truly loves their kids.
This just goes to show what type of person you are. I can appreciate this from a slightly different perspective. When my W and I were looking at having kids we considered adoption due to fertility issues. One of the big concerns I had was if I would be able to love another child as much as one of my own. I just wouldn't want an innocent child to have to settle like that. After having children I feel I probably would but imagine it takes an extra bit of effort sometimes.
I am glad you called to wish your SS a happy birthday. It took courage and it was the right thing to do. From some of your earlier posts it seemed like you were pretty involved in his life and there was a bond there. Remember they didn't ask for this.
TwinDad Me 39, W 36, M 11 W - MLC, WAW???? 2 Kids B/G 3 YRS Old Start of the Long and Bumpy Road..... On the verge of piecing.....a new beginning
