I saw a crash on the news today. not sure if it was the same one. It is always hard to hear of things like that.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
oh, and I'll talk to ya later.... I might have some more swings...gentle swings though. lol
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Thanks for your kind words. I am still feeling kind of tired. Just have my finish up :20 flight and then it is off to bed for me. Oh, Rue might be pissed if I skip walking her for a couple days in a row so I guess I had better not neglect her. She was funny yesterday at the vet's. She had to get her thick paw hair shaved so they could draw blood and then once they bandaged it she was pissed about the bandage and kept hopping around the office on her three legs. She is as tenderhearted of a dog as you will find anywhere. If she sees something potentially painful she starts crying at the sight of it. She makes a good watchdog since she is a light sleeper and growls and barks at anyone who gets too close. I would stop short of calling her a guard dog because she is too much of a cream puff and she does not bear any resemblance to a vicious dog. She is too pretty to be feared.
Today I brought myself a dose of the cold reality that W is gone. Back in December I had uncovered (by snooping of course) a multitude of emails that were exchanged between my W and her ex-H which started nearly a year ago. At the time I read through them all but I did not really want to process them in my mind or have them register in any way. That would be just too painful of an experience. Over the course of the last 6 months I have ocassionally looked in the direction of the envelope which has contained those emails but had held off on re-reading them. That is surely a life in denial. There is no denying anything anymore and today I re-read the whole stack of lovey dovey notes between them. W had tried to explain it all away back in January when I mentioned that I had found them. She sternly denied authoring the one that I had mentioned to her and gave the very flimsy excuse that her D had used her email acct to type the emails to her dad because she was hopeful of having her parents back together. Although my stepD confessed and apologized, it appears to me that was all just a farce since the dates she claims that she created them don't jive with the date stamp on the email.
Sorry you are in pain Tomato. I am too. I know God has a plan for both of us which is better than we realize. We just have to trust Him and hang on....
I might have some more swings...gentle swings though. lol