I guess a lot of my hesitation comes because this guy (I guess I could call him BF for boyfriend, but I hesitate to call him my boyfriend. But guy-that-I-have-been-dating-steadily-for-almost-six-months is just to long to type!) Anyhow, BF (wow!) is much more ready to jump into this than I am. He was divorced from his first wife 10 years ago, and has always been on good terms with her. He has very honestly told me that their divorce was mostly his fault, he was drinking too much and let her down when their kids were babies. (No drinking at all anymore, not a continuing problem) But his second divorce just happened a year ago, although they split a year before it was final. So he has been single two years. His 2nd XW was cheating, so we have that in common!
Anyhow, he is very ready to commit, although he is not pushing. He says he has never felt like this before(?? two marriages) I have to wonder if maybe he is the type of person who jumps very quickly. I just can't imagine coming out of a second D and being ready to commit to someone. It has taken me almost three years to be comfortable dating! And as you can see, I'm not altogether there...
So I have a few of these little warning signs going on that I don't want to ignore, but I also know I am getting cold feet and it would be very easy for me to let this go and return to my safe little comfort zone of focusing only on the kids.
I think my interview went well today...I'm saying a constant prayer in my head and I will let you know if I have any good news!
