I think you hit on something.... it's when I do things for others I feel good. It's like this high. I just feel happy. I can shop and enjoy girly things, and do things to pamper me or hobbies I enjoy.... but nothing gives me this calm sense of satisfaction, and serene happiness, and sense of well-being as making a difference somehow in someone else's life.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
