in limbo and an emotional mess...

[MAZ]

well H spent the day with me and the kids for fathers day, was a rainy damp day so we had breakfast, then went out bowling for a few hours then to a late lunch before he had to go to work, it was a good day, except OW kept calling H and fighting with him "because he didn't call her" so that put a damper on H's mood a bit. He still felt the need to txt her everytime she sent him something and call, yell then hang up. H and I didn't get much alone time to talk but being fathers day and the fact that OW was being a bit** I figured I wouldn't start that because it would have only led to a disagreement. Anyway, here it is Wednesday, and I called H to tell him we have to talk, really talk,, as it appears that I am now pregnant. I don't know what to do,, I don't want him coming back just because of this but I know I can't do it alone. I don't know if he will even come back, he agreed we do need to sit and talk, but seemed happy when I mentioned why we needed to talk. I don't know what to do,,, with everything going on right now this couldn't have happened at a worse time... I can hear OW now telling H that I did it on purpose,, hey ya know what,,this would be the last thing I wanted to happen right now,, do I consider this a blessing or just more bad timing,,,just something else to worry about now..especially since I haven't been eating much of anything the last few months, etc. so I go to the dr. july 1, to see how things are... things just get better and better...