WOW!! progress w H? Keeping my PMA

[pisces9]

i hadn't seen my H in about 4 weeks.
we had a spontaneous lunch yesterday and it went really well...i rubbed his back after and was very open and attentive to him..

he then wrote me a long email last night (very rare)...
he said he was so happy to see me looking so good..
he was sad the our dog wasn't happy to see him (ouch)..
he said he was impressed by me and my attitude...

he also said he couldn't believe i invite him a a trip in July- i i did it very casually and he said he cant believe i would do this after what he has done to our R! this was huge for him to say our R....i have brought it up only once in an email a week ago..so i haven't said much..he said he doesn't think it would be good to go at this point and create expectations for both of us and he thinks he would be going for the wrong reasons..

he also said we should meet again soon to discuss the next steps in our R....
this has me scared..why am i focusing on the negative?

i think this is where the pattern of our R gets muddy- when he wants to open up my fear gets in the way...

luckily since our S i have GAL'd and PMA'd a lot and detached so much..this is another area where i get to do this...

anyway- i just replied and said sounds great im free...let me know what works for you....

any advice??