"I thought (still think in a way) that I can't make it on my own. I need help with this."

Everybody does this...

I'll tell you right now.. you will make it.

"when I stay busy I notice i feel better, funny,huh?"

Now you understand why GAL is sooooo important. It keeps you from eating yourself alive.

Glad things are turning around for you some!

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.