(((EVERYONE))) it made me so happy to wake up this morning and read your affirming words.
Last night I had a dream about B. I was in this building and I heard this beautiful music and I followed the sound until I walked into a room where he was tuning his violin. We hugged but then he had to keep tuning his violin *while* hugging. He said something caring, I can't remember, and for some reason I vividly remember the print on the shirt he was wearing (it was a new sexy shirt, not a blah old man shirt). AND THEN MY ALARM WENT OFF AND I WOKE UP. I laid in bed for like another half an hour just trying to get back to the dream and see what happened next but OH WELL.
Maybe he just needs to keep "tuning the instrument" of his mind-heart-soul until things start to work inside himself. ???? It was awesome to get a hug though, IN MY DREAM!!
I haven't heard from him yet which is OK. I am pretty sure he is in his man cave. Last time it took 3 days for him to get back to me, and it's only been 1 so far. I can't believe the concert was just 2 days ago, it feels like 2 months ago...!!!
I had a discussion with the friend I'm staying with about divorcebusting and she told me that she was worried B didn't know I was interested in getting back together. I tried to explain that I am trying to BE really warm and loving without SAYING anything scary or pursuing. But afterwards I thought, am I a DAW?? Should I have been somehow more obvious that I was interested in seeing him before he left for shelter island? I am trying to figure out how to express interest without showing pressure. But it is totally possible he has NFC I want to be wit him. Is this a problem? Is it really about drawing him to me, so he wants to be with me, not showing him that I want to be with him? What do you guys think?
It seems like, in the grand scheme of my DB'ing, I should focus on the extremely positive interactions in the past 10 days and not push for more if I think it will backfire.
Jeff, thank you so much for your words. It helps when I have a little voice telling me "BE PATIENT" over and over and over.
Essie, your words are so loving. I haven't even thought about not waiting. So that is just what I am focusing on for now.
Ok, time to go to chinatown and hang out with my friends!!!! LOVE, T
