Joyce Meyer said something the other day that hit me between the eyes. She said (I paraphrase), "Are you suffering from depression? Perhaps it is because you are being selfish."

She went on to explain that one major cause for all the depression people suffer today is that they expect so much for themselves in life; they have this sense of entitlement about what they want out of possessions, relationships and aspirations. They get to where they cannot be happy because they get hung up on what they feel life "owes" them. They come to expect the world should make them happy. So they become depressed.

Reality and dreams become at odds. Depression ensues. That was me -- guilty as charged.

The problem is that unless we turn these over to God, to place our dreams and our welfare in God's trust, we cannot be happy. Desires, goals, dreams and aspirations, unless they are in accord with God's will, God's plans, are merely selfish and never lead to true happiness.

We merely need to be happy, by turning this over to the Lord.

I had to find this out the hard way.


Me: 49
WAW: 47
S11, S7
Years Married/Together: 17/18
Bomb: 6/15/07
Separation: 7/6/07
D: 4/3/09

Real love is a decision.
Marriage is a commitment.