The rollercoaster is one heck of a ride and it can definitely get to you. Getting that new job would probably help out quite a bit on many levels (GAL and finding a new focus). When do you expect to hear about the job?
If it was me I would probably take some hope in the wording of the e-mail but I would just keep it too myself. I think sometimes the subconscience has a way of coming out.
TwinDad Me 39, W 36, M 11 W - MLC, WAW???? 2 Kids B/G 3 YRS Old Start of the Long and Bumpy Road..... On the verge of piecing.....a new beginning