MC is a week from today. My IC gave me some strategies; however, they include taking control, giving voice to what's been going on including the A, asking for guidance with the "what now" and drawing a very clear line about not wanting D to spend any time at all with OW. I think she's not far from figuring it out, but she just doesn't need to deal with being exposed to the craziness.
Just had coffee with a friend; we're having dinner Thursday. Having breakfast with another friend tomorrow. (yes, both women!) I've been inside my head too long with being alone in the house since Friday evening, was close to a panic attack earlier today but managed to breathe through it; it helps to be able to vent, to laugh, and to feel supported. I spent today antiquing; my feet hurt, but I literally shopped till I dropped and it was great not to have anyone to answer to but me. I think I got antiquing out of my system for awhile, and got a few new things to decorate with. This is my relaxation. I think it's also, in a way, how I anchor myself to the past; I have no family, which is weird and makes me feel as if I was dropped into this time and space. So I get a bunch of old stuff. Nothing expensive. Maybe I can have a booth somewhere when I reach retirement age!
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012
