hey Running - she is confused all right but I am not. I don't have hopes - I have plans - very well thought plans. I cannot believe I reached this point, but I feel in power like I didn't in years, I feel like a well oiled war machine. W called 3 times today - nothing really, I shouldn't have even answered, but it is a treat I am going to use during the evenings, when I MAY be out. She also asked me to have the night free for her birthday - I said sure!! Have fun!! She made the point 2 or 3 times that she is going out with some of her girlfriends... (not OM). I just said: SURE - have fun, I'll keep the kids... no comments. Now I also started to talk with a low deeper voice, I am enjoying this new me. The scariest part is actually if she wants back, I thought about it and I don't think I want her back - I feel like she is a badly used car....
