Well, somehow I think the whole trust things has a lot to do with his ex wife. When she left him, she literally cleaned out the house. So, when I left, I somehow think that he's 'reenacting' that moment. During this outburst, he literally compared me to her this time, and I came out as scum of the earth. In the past, he used to rant and rave about how low she was, the things she did, and I personally saw how she acted, but he never compared us. She was immature and totally selfish, vindictive. So, I understand why he's doing some of the things he's doing, but it really hurts to be compared to his ex wife all of a sudden. I don't get it. Maybe it's more than that, I don't know.
It's been an emotional roller coaster for me, I won't lie. I have allowed a lot of what he said about me get to me personally, but I am getting a grip on that, and I realize that what he says is not true, it's just what he's going through right now. It's still very hard. I really feel sad for him, truthfully. He's confused I'm sure. I'm just leaving him alone. This site has really helped me a lot, just reading and I can relate to so many. I am not reading the DR book and GALing. (BTW, turned in an application to a job I really really really hope to get... need prayers!!!!)
Part of me believes that right now, he's just emotionally lashing out. The way he worded his emails to me makes me think that because he used phrases like... I don't care at this moment, etc. They weren't 'permanent' markers, if that makes sense, it was like the theme of the email is "right now I'm just pissed off." Instead of saying, I don't want to ever see you again, he said, Right now, I don't want to see you or be near you. But hell, I could be totally misinterpreting that.
I don't know if I should write him or not. I suppose I should, even, if like you say, he writes back a snotty response, so be it.
