How Much BS do I believe?!

[pisces9]

Hello!!

had a spontanious lunch! i like that better-not as much build up.

well i did see him and it went VERY well...
talked about a lot of stuff (mostly him) i listened very well- affirmed and just had a good time.
i was ok with the silence...it was a little weird but i just smiled.
he said you look good- new hair color? he said he almost didnt recognize me- ive lost alot of weight...and i look GOOD !

so i said it was nice to see you- i hope we can do it again!

i rubbe dhis back...poor guy needs some touching! (me too!) he didnt reciprocate but thats ok...

he said yeah- "we can talk about things"...

every time he says that my automatic brain takes me to a place of fear of the unknown...or that he will say the words again- BUT he hasnt done that!

so overall it was VERY good and positive...he needs to know i am strong and can handle anything..i need to know this too and i truly believe in myself more than i ever have in my whole life.

now i just need to slow down again- take it baby step by baby step...

thank goodness for all of your support!

i feel VERY GOOD!!!