inmyplace--want to hear something else that's weird--I am from New England too--Springfield actually, How about you? I understand about the job situation. I lost my job of sixteen years and got my divorce all in the same month. It's taken me three years to straighten out my money. Do you have children and that's why you all go to church together? I don't know much about your situation so pardon me, but do you want to get back with your wife?? I have just begun and I already know what you mean when you say that this can go on forever. When do you reach where forever is enough?