Just wanted to say that what you're going through is very normal. I think that we women have a harder time making a commitment because our heart rules more than our head. No I really don't think that it's supposed to be what we felt (as far as the fireworks go) the first time around. We were young and stupid and had absolutely no idea what a real commitment meant. All we really believed was that it would be forever. Well we all know how that story ended, don't we.
I think that I've gotten use to being my own person and that in itself is hard to let go of. Oh and then there are our children. No they don't much like seeing us with someone new and somehow we think that we're taking something away from them if we dare to have our own life. This, I imagine is when it would be easier having younger children.
Anyway, before long our kids will have their own lives and I imagine that it would be easier on them if they didn't have to worry about us being alone. Right now they are still at home and guarding their territory, in a couple of years it will be a whole different ballgame. We have to remember this and decide if we would rather be alone forever or just for the timebeing. Problem is, no guy is going to wait around forever!
