Number 8, still too late for DB to work.

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I know some things will be better. I'm up to the challenge, just don't want it. I'm going to be 40 starting out at the beginning in so many ways and it's daunting.

My childrens' childhoods won't be as free and easy-going as I wanted them to be. They will not have the same opportunities, but that's not to say their opportunities will be gone. They will have many obstacles in their way, both financially, physically (distance between parents) and emotionally.

I look forward to eventually finding someone who loves me wholly, supports me and values me. I, in turn, look forward to doing that again to somebody. But I doubt I'll ever get married again. I'm not going to that joke on Jay Leno about being in her third marriage.