I meant to indicate that I feel I've experienced the highs and lows. But hey, late night rambles ... from emotion to fingertips with no stop mechanism in between.
Just an update. For better or worse I've decided to take the higher road and be a friend. She may walk all over me at times and I'll have to decide where my boundaries are, but otherwise, why be confrontational? Things are as they are and there's no reason to hold onto bitterness.
So she called early this AM. Was nervous about relying on just her car in the field, so wanted to take my truck for 3 weeks. We had kept the truck for precisely this reason, so I told her she was welcome to use it. She also asked if I'd check to make sure the timer for watering was working properly. I agreed.
When she came over to get the truck, we sat out on the patio a bit. Talked about work. Light-hearted, voiced frustrations. Nothing too deep. She thanked me again and then left.
I feel like this will be a good route to take. It won't lead to reconnecting romantically, but at least it's pleasant and non-confrontational. I just have to stop thinking of her as my wife, painful as that may be. And who knows, when she gets back, maybe I can ask her to dinner and she'll accept.
