Wow I posted my last post 12 hours ago, 2 views and zero replies, ouch. Sorry not trying to guilt anyone I'm just really surprised right now. Then again I don't post much to other's threads anymore either. You know the old saying you get what you give, I guess that holds true here too.
No I don't participate much in this forum like I did in the past, between my job and GALing I've got things going on and the whole situation just doesn't consume me like it did early on. I have my days and yesterday was one of them but I'm mostly just getting on with life. I stand and stand fairly quietly now, she and I don't talk much. Its actually a bit maddening because she'll be silent or curt with me one day then a few days later, chat my ears off. She'll say "I just didn't have anything to say then." OK whatever, odd we were always chitchatting before all this. Then again it usually was about work since we worked together or kids.
I've got a friend here who told me that they admire my stand and my view that I have to see it through before I throw in the towel. This friend realizes for me it's about my word and regret. I gave my word, my vow and in that I said "for better and for worse" and I meant that. Standing is something I have to do for me. I'm ok with whatever the outcome of this situation will be, I do have a preference but it's not really my choice in many ways. But if it ends in divorce I know I'm fine and will continue to be fine. I am good to my word and for me that's very, very important. If I were to quit now I'd have regret and for me regret means I failed to do everything in my power to resolve this situation.
So I straighten myself up after being knocked around by frustration. I wobbled, I stumbled about but I didn't fall. Evil can try but I won't succumb to its efforts.
1 Corinthians 16: 13-14
"13Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. 14Do everything in Love."
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
