Amazing how we feel a lot of the same things. I think I might take W back or at least try if she suddenly came to her senses. Her PA was a bit closer (well I think it happened earlier) but I think I could possibly get past it. I don't know if you've followed my sitch but I "cheated" on her the other day and it didn't feel good once it was over. I only had thoughts of my W once the OW was gone. Don't know why I did it but it happened and I realized I still want my W.
I know what you mean about the "affair fog". I really want to wait a few weeks, months and see where she's at. Its so hard though. Unlike you, I have D almost full time. W needed space from more than just me, obviously. I'm hoping for just one more shot too though.
Bworl's advice is dead on. Focus on you right now and not what he's doing. Take care.
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)