Here is what I sent H:
Hi there,

Father's Day is usually a time for me to be reflective and today is no different. I got your dad some BBQ spices. I hope he likes them. \:\)

I wanted to send you a quick note and thank you for the wonderful birthday dinner and concert. You know my favorite gifts are doing, rather than having and it was extra special having you there. I do wonder what you're making me? ;\)

Also, I wanted to thank you for comforting me while I was upset. I'm really not used to crying for myself and without repeating myself and getting into it more than I did on Thursday, I think you know how big it was for me to show you my feelings. Even though it wasn't the most ideal location or way for me to say those things, I didn't care and just allowed it. I'n not good at confessing my weaknesses nor acknowledging to anyone that I'm not so strong and I'm horrible at expressing my anger. As you know, I tend to ignore those feelings. Thankfully, I'm slowly learning to not ignore them anymore. \:\)

I'm proud of myself for just expressing myself and for not holding back in concern of how you would interpret it. I'm proud of myself for acknowledging my feelings and allowing myself to cry for myself. But, what I want to say to you, is that you also allowed me to be that way by your reaction, even if you weren't conscious of it. You allowed me to express myself. You accepted it completely, didn't hold it against me, and for the rest of the night continued to treat me like Beth and didn't let it affect our fun for the rest of the night. You allowed me to be a wreck for a few minutes and allowed me to embrace my own feelings. You talked me through it and I learned alot about you, not only by what you said but by your simple actions. And Wow. I totally totally just needed that and didn't even know it. Thank you H.

If you want to share anything with me, I honestly welcome it, no matter what it is. But, you don't need to respond to this e-mail, I just wanted to express my feelings to you.

Thanks again,

Beth

H & I, both 32, together since 18.
*M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08
* Agreed to D 6/09...very hard
*D 8/10
* At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF