Well, I am back, all safe and sound, and none the worse for wear. The trip itself was beautiful/amazing/breathtaking... at least for me, on my own level. It also had its bittersweet moments; while H and I both so love this kind of travel, he was quite the d!ck a number of times about stupid things, like when we had temporary trouble with directions and somehow I was just bad for not being omniscient (almost like he was trying to pick a fight). And I found myself thinking/feeling during those times just why would I want to be with someone who acted like this toward me? I am also reading Eat, Pray, Love, and parts of it were very centering, and helped me to be still during those times.
So, for the most part, I handled those episodes pretty well; however, I also p!ssed H off when I stumbled into some passive/aggressive behavior by being less than enthusiastic about him buying himself a small leather wallet (my thought being he didn't need it, and we were getting hammered on costs due to the exchange rate...)and it was only about $15... not my best moment. So I apologized for acting dumb about that; and it later occurred to me that H never once said sorry for being such an a*s.
For the most part, though, it was a great experience...and i felt good about how hard i had worked to contribute toward a good experience for all of us...
And so now, we'll see what happens...
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It just crossed my mind that the OW must be going a little crazy right now thinking of you two leaving for 2 wks together & that may be why all that emotion was stepped up lately. He probably had to do a lot of reassuring beforehand.
Sunny, as I mentioned to you on your thread, ya know it's funny...I guess because I just can't see myself ever being in that kind of situation, it's very hard for me to imagine that H would be deceptive in his R with OW (although that's probably a pretty naive way of thinking...). H was definitely anxious to find internet cafes to 'check his email' much more frequently than on any other trip we've been on...
ANother interesting observation; on our last full day of vacation (a beautiful day in the Swiss Alps, no less...) H said several times how much he didn't want to go home. I can guess why; reality will bite him hard if/when he moves forward with his plan to move out...
So it's time to start giving some real thought to what's coming next...But whatever that my be, it was a h@ll of a last hurrah!!
