So, I'm sitting here thinking. Not much working going on today for me. Doing a lot of thinking.
About a lot of things and nothing in particular. About how my life has change so much, so fast. About the choices I made in life and the things those choices brought me. Both good and bad. About how my life will not turn out the way I expected now. About how my children's lives won't either.
I'm also realizing that I'm a better father now than I was before. That I'm back "in the game" and not just going through the motions. That when I'm with them I am really with them.
That I am going to find someone who loves me for me. Someone special. Perhaps a redhead.....
Keep your head up, my friend. We all make decisions in life. Some work out others do not...the important thing is to try to enjoy the journey. This is something I tend to look back on. My W has always said there are no guarantees in life....I hate to admit it but she is right. I need to improve on this (slowing down and smelling the roses)even though I have made some strides in that direction in the last decade, recent events have really enabled me to make some improvements especially in the 'going through the motions" area.
