I actually can't wait to hear how things are going. Please remember, though, that this is my first foray into the online world and I'm woefully behind on what all the acronyms mean. TTYS?
j/k = joke?
My conversation with my mother turned out to be really nothing, but my strong reaction to what I thought she was going to talk about has given me something to think about. I remember once telling my H that I thought he was 'needy', by which I meant dependent on outside validation, something my mother is as well. Our value in the world depends on our actions, not the opinions of others, in my (not so humble) opinion
So, on some level his wanting to be close to my physically felt similar to my mother wanting to be close emotionally - neither of them with any regard as to what I might want or need. Maybe - seems like two different things. Perhaps it's more useful to give a glimpse of how my H feels about having to take care of my feelings, despite his own role in creating them.
I'm hoping to get some work done outside today, as the work I get paid to do is slow today. This is one thing I love about working at home - I don't have to spend my down time finding meaningless tasks at the office. When things are busy, I often don't have time for anything but work work, so it balances out. Of course, instead I'm sitting in front of this screen, pouring out my life to strangers.
Perhaps this is why Catholics are into confession - tell it all, no consequences. And you guys don't even make me say Hail Marys or whatever it is priests do.
