Yes I will take this advice and run with it. And no I'm not a slob, I work cook and clean up around the house. It is just we have been in a finicial rut but Im working through that. I have to be careful when I say I'm working through it, I have to learn to say we are working through it. And yes I know I have to start out small but I will continue to work on the big picture. But it just seems she is the one who is making future plans with me. Thats why Im so confused about things, and it seems lately that she is starting to open up to me again. It is just hard for me to do that in return because of her criticism. Like I said, at first it seemed she was on my team and then over time, she would make me feel that she was only looking for negative things about me to exploit. I know Im not perfect, but the mean and nasty way she talked to me, made me just clam up. I wanted to say nothing at all. And she even told me her mom told her that she is just like her dad. Nothing anyone does for her is ever good enough, she will always find faults in whatever it is being done for her. And thats one of the many reasons her mom left her dad. And thats how I feel nothing I do is ever good enough, and I feel I'm not good enough. And so thats why I turned to lying and not telling the whole truth, because of her demeanor. She told me yesterday that retrouvaille could be a starting point for us, and she seems to be looking forward to it. I just dont know how to read her as of yet. but its coming.
